If Just For Today

Today is a happy day! I went to see my mom in the nursing home. For those of you who don’t know, my mom has Alzheimer’s.  Not every visit is a good one. There are visits where she doesn’t know me at all.  It is hard to look in her eyes & know that she doesn’t know who I am.  There is no recognition, no memories …for a daughter who she dearly loved.   On those days I want to cry tears of sadness for my mother, for the pain she suffers and for me, for the pain I feel …and sometimes I do cry.  I cry long and hard.  Of course I wait until the drive home, never letting on to her.

Today was not one of those days. Today she knew me and her eyes lit up when I came in the room.   Sometimes it is not long, for a fleeting second and then it is gone.  But today it lingered on and for today, maybe just for today, but for today she knew me the entire visit.  She had her daughter and I had my mother. I treasured every moment of our visit knowing it could be the last.  The last time I see her or maybe just the last time she sees me as me, her daughter.

I cried on the way home, tears of happiness. So today I am truly blessed, if only for today, if only one more time …today I had my mother back!

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26 thoughts on “If Just For Today

  1. Mother is the most special blessing anyone can have. You both are so lucky to have each other in your lives. I pray that every visit of yours be as special and happy as this one. Take care Arl 💕

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  2. Wow this touched me so thank you for sharing. I am the sole care giver aside from home attendants to my almost 93 year old grandmother. I write about her from time to time on my blog. It is a very big challange dealing with Alzhemiers and only those who deal with it can truly know the pain it cause and how it tears at your spirit. I’m so glad you had such a great day I have a few of those moments but they are way to short. I’ve made it a game now introducing myself each time every few hours during our visits. Again thanks for sharing xo

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    • Thank you so much and you are welcome! I see you understand how hard it can be for not only them but the caregiver and/or loved ones. I do that as well, playing the name game etc. We are truly blessed to have them this long …but it is not always easy. Prayers for you and your grandmother. Wishing you many more moments …She has a wonderful granddaughter. Thanks again for stopping by and for your kind words! ❤

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      • Hi there! I am writing you here because your blog will not accept my comment, tried 3 times, I have given up. 😦 I finally found your blog. When you comment on mine and I click on the Blog Title/link under your picture it would send me to your old blog. I found this one by your Gravatar. Anyway, what a great blog you have here!! Keep up the good work! Thanks so much for visiting mine. Now that I have found you I will be back and will try to comment, if it lets me. 🙂

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  3. yes seize all those moments!! I miss my mom every day. She never got to the point where she didn’t recognize us but shortly before she passed she forgot that dad had died and would phone and ask if he was at my house. It’s hard to see your strong parents age and become fragile. Now I know I”m next!

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