Today is a happy day! I went to see my mom in the nursing home. For those of you who don’t know, my mom has Alzheimer’s. Not every visit is a good one. There are visits where she doesn’t know me at all. It is hard to look in her eyes & know that she doesn’t know who I am. There is no recognition, no memories …for a daughter who she dearly loved. On those days I want to cry tears of sadness for my mother, for the pain she suffers and for me, for the pain I feel …and sometimes I do cry. I cry long and hard. Of course I wait until the drive home, never letting on to her.
Today was not one of those days. Today she knew me and her eyes lit up when I came in the room. Sometimes it is not long, for a fleeting second and then it is gone. But today it lingered on and for today, maybe just for today, but for today she knew me the entire visit. She had her daughter and I had my mother. I treasured every moment of our visit knowing it could be the last. The last time I see her or maybe just the last time she sees me as me, her daughter.
I cried on the way home, tears of happiness. So today I am truly blessed, if only for today, if only one more time …today I had my mother back!
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